Just That You Know

My home is upside down, inside out and all of the drawers have exploded, it’s a mess. It’s a four and half year’s mess of stuff being in boxes and rooms to be completed. I don’t know if you’ve ever renovated an old home so I don’t know if you know about the renovation blues … well I had a good old renovation sob last night. You have tears and you have ugly tears, I had some pretty ugly tears last night. Sitting in the middle of and old desk, a new potential desk and all the contents of drawers that needed to be transported to other drawers. It wasn’t a pretty sight …

The reason for all this chaos is that we’ve both been away from our home during March for work and because of my father in law.

There’s a massive tumour growing his stomach, it’s still growing and he’s quietly dying. Leaving the wish, now that he is  still aware, to organize his own cremation. It’s a roller-coaster of emotions when picking out the clothes he’s going to wear, the music he wants to be played, the seating arrangement of the family … I’ve never seen someone close die so slowly, my father got ill on Monday and died on Tuesday so this different, this is proper saying goodbye. It’s quiet and friendly and I wish for everyone to die like this.

Normally Bo and I host Easter brunch for Bo’s family but this year we obviously have to do it at Bo’s parents. So there’s not much Easter festivity going on at the blog, I hope you understand.

The living room is slowly growing into a me room. I’ve got my room white, my sofa downstairs and my nook back.

Lots of love xox

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  • Elizabeth
    28/03/2013 at 00:02

    Much love to you and Bo, Yvonne (and Boo, too – and your families) x

  • Nathalie
    28/03/2013 at 00:06

    Een dikke knuffel! Ik zat vorig jaar in deze tijd in precies dezelfde situatie met mijn moeder. Het is inderdaad heel mooi, maar niet minder moeilijk.

  • begoña
    28/03/2013 at 00:21

    un abrazo y mis mejores deseos!

  • Mengelmoes
    28/03/2013 at 00:26

    Bah, wat een verdrietig nieuws. Dat je alles zo bewust en van dichtbij meemaakt, zorgt er misschien wel voor dat je er later met een ‘goed gevoel’ op terug kunt kijken. Sterkte voor jullie allemaal.

  • Igor
    28/03/2013 at 00:46

    Absolutely understandable, Yvonne! I wish you a very happy Easter season & great family time! Hugs from Munich, Igor.

  • Ana from Portugal
    28/03/2013 at 00:51

    Sending a big kiss and a bear hug for you and Bo.Saying goodbye is wonderful and dreadful at the same time…

  • colleen @ hello olive
    28/03/2013 at 00:52

    Hello Yvonne, I am so sorry to hear about your father-in-law. It’s terribly sad but I hope you all feel some peace that you are able to say goodbye… Big hugs, Colleen x

  • Karen
    28/03/2013 at 00:55

    What heartbreaking news. My condolences. Savor this Easter with your family.

  • Mummy's own decorating
    28/03/2013 at 11:56

    I am so so sorry for you and your family. All my thoughts and best wishes.Take care

  • Tamar
    28/03/2013 at 11:59

    Darling and Yvonne and Bo,I’m so sorry to hear this, what hard times, Wishing you and you family love and sending you hugs.

  • Tineke
    28/03/2013 at 13:02

    Ik heb zo’n periode ook meegemaakt met mijn schoonvader. Ondanks al het verdriet kan je er als familie een mooie, warme tijd van maken. Zo kijken wij er wel op terug.Veel sterkte!

  • Leanda
    28/03/2013 at 13:47

    So sorry to hear about your father-in-law Yvonne, my thoughts are with you. My father was ill recently so I can relate a bit. I think everything has to feel extra hard at the moment so having and upside down house doesn’t help I’m sure. A good sob is cathartic 🙂 xx

  • alis
    28/03/2013 at 14:05

    I’m sorry about your father in law, I wish you, Bo, and your entire family patience and my best wishes through these hard times…

  • esther
    28/03/2013 at 17:09

    It is so hard to lose the people you love. I pray your father in law and family has peace and strength during these difficult time. xo

  • Polly
    28/03/2013 at 18:00

    I’m really sorry to hear that. You are in all our thoughts.

  • Sonja
    28/03/2013 at 18:54

    I am very sorry about your sad news. It is hard to watch someone you love organise their estate. All I can say is spend plenty of time with them I found reminising about the past the easiest and it brings a smile to their face everytime. My heart goes out to you and Bo and his family.Take Care 🙂

  • mary
    28/03/2013 at 18:55

    I am so deeply sorry. My daughter needs a new kidney, since we found out last year. We are realizing, with great sadness, that if it is not a living donor, someone must loose this life here.
    If i may, i will keep you all in my prayers.

    With Kindness,

  • Iris
    28/03/2013 at 19:02

    Wat een verdrietige tijden. Sterkte en liefs.

  • madebymim
    28/03/2013 at 19:16

    sorry to hear your news, best wishes to you and your family at this sad time x

  • Natasja
    28/03/2013 at 19:38

    Wat ontzettend triest Yvonne. Een klein lichtpuntje dat jullie nog rustig afscheid van hem kunnen nemen, maar ik kan me voorstellen dat het een groot gemis zal zijn. Ik hoop dat jullie ondanks alles toch een mooie tijd samen hebben de komende dagen. En ik wens jou, Bo en de schoonfamilie heel veel sterkte <3

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  • Caroline @trend-daily
    28/03/2013 at 20:28

    Oh Yvonne, I’m so sorry-but as you say, time to say goodby properly and be together. Thinking of you sweety. Huge hug Caroline xx

  • Sew Create It - Jane
    28/03/2013 at 20:35

    My heartfelt thoughts are with you and your family at this difficult time. ((hugs))

  • Jerusalem Greer
    28/03/2013 at 20:42

    I am so sorry to hear about your father in law, but I am so glad for you all that you are able to have this sort of goodbye. What a blessings.

  • Sophie
    28/03/2013 at 20:55

    Courage ma belle…

  • Marianne
    28/03/2013 at 21:15

    Het is fijn dat jullie op deze manier afscheid kunnen nemen van je schoonvader, maar het blijft moeilijk!Ik wens jullie veen sterkte!

  • Kathleen
    28/03/2013 at 21:23

    Yvonne,I’m so sorry to hear this, my thoughts are with you and Bo. Sending over a big hug. xo

  • May
    28/03/2013 at 21:43

    Hugs to you and the family.. from your blog’s fan overseas xx

  • Eva
    28/03/2013 at 22:09

    Wat een rotnieuws, heel veel sterkte!

  • Daniela
    28/03/2013 at 22:54

    I’m so sorry Yvonne to hear about your father in law. I’m sending you a big hug and lots of strength to go through this tough time.

  • Gillian
    28/03/2013 at 23:00

    So sorry to hear that Yvonne. I hope you are able to enjoy some special family time together this Easter. x

  • Meredithe
    28/03/2013 at 23:55

    My thought and prayers are with your father-in-law, you, your husband and families. Hoping you have special, precious time together over Easter.

  • Christine
    29/03/2013 at 00:03

    I went through a similar experience with my mother. It is extremely difficult, however, I am glad I had a chance to say goodbye. My thoughts are with you.

  • Bex
    29/03/2013 at 00:09

    Thinking of you all. xx

  • Susana@citrusandorange
    29/03/2013 at 01:00

    Oh dear Yvonne and Bo. Accept my loving feelings for you from this distant place. I am so sorry.


  • handmade by amalia
    29/03/2013 at 03:52

    I’ve been reading your blog for a while and feel I can comment on a personal post. I wanted to let you know that I’m thinking of you at this difficult time and hope that life will get better and brighter soon

  • Nena - whatevergivesjoy
    29/03/2013 at 07:28

    Ik volg je nog maar kort! Maar oh, hoe verliefd ben ik geworden op je huis! Na de renovatie zal alles er nog mooier uit zien!
    Heel veel sterkte in de moeilijke periode die je familie en jij nu meemaken.


  • kleurendurf
    29/03/2013 at 08:39

    Heel veel sterkte, Yvonne.

  • mamasha
    29/03/2013 at 09:01

    Sterkte voor jou, Boris en de rest van de familie. x

  • jenny
    29/03/2013 at 09:27

    Dear Yvonne,I’m wishing you lots of strength in the next days and weeks. My thoughts are with you and your family… All the best,

  • Iris Vank
    29/03/2013 at 11:25

    O bah wat naar Yvonne. Sterkte!!

  • Leslie-Anne
    29/03/2013 at 11:30

    Yvonne, please know that you and your family are in my prayers at this difficult time.

  • Miralda Akkermans
    29/03/2013 at 11:35

    Lieve Yvonne en Bo,
    Wat een heftig bericht en wat mooi dat jullie er zo bij betrokken zijn en het op die manier samen met je schoonouders kunnen doen. Ik wens jou en Bo veel sterkte de komende tijd.

  • Charlotte | Anknel and Burblets
    29/03/2013 at 11:40

    Nothing more awful than watching a parent die. It just leaves you numb.Best wishes to you and Bo. xx

  • tracy
    29/03/2013 at 13:18

    such a sad time for you and your loved ones, i send gentle hugs xit never helps being surrounded by chaos – same here as we are two years in to a big move and have spent those years outside on the farm whilst the house just filled with stuff…
    now the job of sorting is overwhelming and i too have just sat amongst it and sobbed.
    we will get through it…
    t x

  • Suzanne Pearson
    29/03/2013 at 14:19

    Thank you for letting us all into your life at this difficult and sad time. We are thinking of you and wishing you strength and courage to get through the pain but to atill be able to appreciate the happiness you have shared with your Father in Law. Hope your tears washed away some of the pain.xxxxxx

  • Valerie
    29/03/2013 at 15:44

    Sending you and your family ((((( BIG HUGS )))) – your friend Valerie over in British Columbia, Canada 🙂

  • Alex
    29/03/2013 at 18:19

    Thinking of you and sending hugs over the ocean at what must be a very difficult time. Hope that you have a peaceful easter together.

  • Cristina
    30/03/2013 at 00:18

    Today I have lost a friend of mine, so young, just 44…his disease was terrible and too much long…I can understand you…a big hug…

  • Majoh1966
    30/03/2013 at 17:56

    Samen een goed afscheid kunnen nemen is heel bijzonder. Maar dat weet je al. Sterkte voor jou en je familie.

  • Silly Old Suitcase
    30/03/2013 at 18:29

    Verschrikkelijk voor jullie, sterkte hoor! xx

  • Sacha
    31/03/2013 at 14:15

    Heel veel sterkte! X

  • Marta Valente
    01/04/2013 at 08:56

    Dear Yvonne,
    I read your blog all the time, from Portugal. I lived in Brussels for the major part of my life and bought my dog in Lommel (a Bichon called Toby). I am writing this so that you know a little about me. Even if we are very far away, in sorrow, everyone is very close. So, let me send you a little bit of warmth from Portugal, knowing it won’t change anything in the difficult moments you are living, but just to let you know that people from all over the world are thinking of you and hoping for the best.


  • Cyndi (elf_girl)
    09/04/2013 at 16:18

    Just wanted to say how sorry I am. I know how difficult this whole dying process can be… it’s not pleasant, and it’s never like the movies. My mother died from pancreatic cancer three years ago. It was such a horrible thing to go through. Sending you hugs and love from Baltimore.