My home is upside down, inside out and all of the drawers have exploded, it’s a mess. It’s a four and half year’s mess of stuff being in boxes and rooms to be completed. I don’t know if you’ve ever renovated an old home so I don’t know if you know about the renovation blues … well I had a good old renovation sob last night. You have tears and you have ugly tears, I had some pretty ugly tears last night. Sitting in the middle of and old desk, a new potential desk and all the contents of drawers that needed to be transported to other drawers. It wasn’t a pretty sight …
The reason for all this chaos is that we’ve both been away from our home during March for work and because of my father in law.
There’s a massive tumour growing his stomach, it’s still growing and he’s quietly dying. Leaving the wish, now that he is still aware, to organize his own cremation. It’s a roller-coaster of emotions when picking out the clothes he’s going to wear, the music he wants to be played, the seating arrangement of the family … I’ve never seen someone close die so slowly, my father got ill on Monday and died on Tuesday so this different, this is proper saying goodbye. It’s quiet and friendly and I wish for everyone to die like this.
Normally Bo and I host Easter brunch for Bo’s family but this year we obviously have to do it at Bo’s parents. So there’s not much Easter festivity going on at the blog, I hope you understand.
The living room is slowly growing into a me room. I’ve got my room white, my sofa downstairs and my nook back.
Lots of love xox